Back, With A Brand New Attitude
Just kidding. No attitude adjustments happening here! But, I am back after about five months, with...a new set of complicated, hard things. Also there are some really good things! But no one needs to journal about those. A warp-speed fill-in: it turns out I ended up getting pregnant really soon after those last posts. About two weeks later, to be exact, which means that I was technically writing them at the verrrrry beginning of the pregnancy, since pregnancy is counted from when your cycle begins, not from the date of conception. I feel like I should find some sort of meaning in that, but it feels very trite. "Sometimes what you're looking for is just around the corner!" - Okay, and sometimes it's not. You can't know in the moment, and feelings are very real as they happen. It seems stupid to try and force them away. Anyway. I got pregnant, fairly unexpectedly because we thought I wasn't ovulating. But I guess I did, randomly! (This mysteriousness of my body...